penantian sudah berakhir. at first, I DIDNT wanna check my result as ibu told me so. but 'thanks' to my lil bro, hazmi for being 'too concern'. I told him I was super afraid to check my result and of course, I didnt wanna spoil my listening, reading and writing test for Muet, tmrw. but then he straight away browse to ILearn website (i dont have any idea how on earth he knew that) and logged in to my account and tadaa, here came the result. pffft. anyway, I'm glad. sebab takde la mcm orang separuh gila fikir result even I tried to distract myself frm thinking abt it.
semalam mmg tak boleh tidur. shaking mcm apa kesapu, padahal dah set dalam otak takkan cek till lepas Muet. urghh. Nani pun bagus jugak tolong aku check kan. she wanted to check mine so badly.. so tak sampai hati then I gave her my email and password. she just said, alhamdulillah. so tahu2 lah aku xkena tendang from asasi :')
all I can say is.. alhamdulillah. it's beyond my expectation. I thought I would fail my Chemistry paper but yeahh, alhamdulillah I wasn't. C+ is better than enough. iye lah, carry marks teruk tp dapat C+ okay lah kan. hahaa I wanna cry. but a lil bit disappointed with Bio and Maths papers as I was expecting more :) but still alhamdulillah. Physics, surprisingly, I got A for that even carry marks for Physics is almost the same with Chemistry. alhamdulillah.
bila tengok result kawan2 lain moree gempak, and most of them 3.5 n above, I'm so proud of them. budak2 btho tayah cakap result kemain hebat, aku je sesat teruk sikit. but it's okay, tu rezeki dorang, rezeki aku lain. I hate to compare pointer with others ke apa sbb tauu mmg I did bad. all I need is a second chance. and Allah granted my wish. thank you, ya Allah. I love you, Ya Allah.
I haven't told my parents yet. dah try call and text but no replies.. maybe busy kerja kot. tp I bet ayah lega sebab almost everyday dari minggu lepas ayah tanya result dah keluar belum. yelah, aku almost nangis2 depan ayah sbb confident kena tendang. anyway, ada jugak kawan2 aku fail satu paper. aku harap dorang kuat and repeat lah paper tu.. selagi ada peluang, guna elok2. n buat mereka yg result 3.5 ke atas tapi still tak puas hati, syukurlah. ramai yg lain menangis2 fail paper.. korang terima lah dgn hati terbuka. ada sebab Allah tak beri apa yg korang nak. n jgn give up!
now I can focus on Muet :) anyway, thanks for your endless support, dear friends and seniors. rasa disayangi :') hee okay I'm done :) assalamualaikum.