*breathe in, breathe out*
here I go again, currently collecting back these broken pieces of my heart and trying so hard not to shed a tear. crying isn't the best solution, but at least, it helps someone to feel much better.. reminiscing back those memories, I wish they were still here with me. missing someone does hurt, especially when you know that you can't do anything about it. they walked away and never came back (perhaps?) people come and go. best friends ditch. lovers leave and the only one who stays is your family, no matter what. who else? Allah. He always will.
I've gone through a lot; heartbreaks, disappointments, but it's still too early to give up. I'm still young to be sad and not to cherish every moment He still gives to me. life is a chance. it's either you use this chance wisely or you ruin it. for every action we make, that's a choice. we choose to be what we wanna be, what we wanna portray to everyone. the consequences that we need to face is somehow beyond expectation, yet at the same time, by running away from it shows how weak we are. what you give, you get back. just like what Allah has promised to us; that for every good deed/ sin, He will repay to us in the Hereafter.
when it comes to somethg that relates with feelings, I can conclude that it's way complicated to be understood by anyone. as example, you want someone who completes all your requirements in a way to make him as your life partner, or boyfriend maybe. he must be loyal, kind-hearted, intelligent, pious, so on and so forth, but the truth is, when you fall for someone, it's like........... so inevitable. you have no other reasons to say 'no', eventhough he doesn't exactly what you wish for. you accept him as the way he is. how silly. so why do we list out all the requirements at the very first place?
love is blind. and painful. and not worth it if it's way too far from what Allah had told us.
'may Allah would always be with you.' let's just... stay strong :')