but Allah knows. always.
I can get through this. 'cause verily, to every hardship, there's always a solution and a way out from it, with His help. inshaaAllah. as for now, all I need is time to think and decide. to be honest, I'm too scared to step ahead.. future is unpredictable, yet I believe that He always has a better plan for me, for everyone. Husnudzon. everything happens for a reason.
anyway, thanks for those who're being concern and trying to help :)
I'll be fine. hopefully.